I Want To Know What It's Like

So I have decided to share this powerful, rightful, strong, impressive and touching video. If you know me personally or have had read my previous blog posts, I'm one that always support LGBT's rights. In short, it is simply because I couldn't contemplate a reason that I can use to go against any LGBTs. To all out there, no matter you are a gay, straight or bi, I show all my supports. Because personality > sexuality.

I want to know what it's like...
To be normal. To be accepted. To be human. To be equal. To be free.

I want to know what it's like...
To be open. To be heard. To be loved. To be happy. To be me.

I want to know what it's like...
To feel like I belong.
To feel like I am strong.
That who I am isn't wrong.
I want to know what it's like...
To know that I am here.
That Iʼll make it through the year.
To know I wonʼt disappear.

I want to know what it's like...
To not have to fight.
To see an end in sight.
To make what is wrong right.
I want to know what it's like...
To be able to believe.
In a higher power that doesn't see.
Me as sin or sodomy.

I want to know what it's like...
To have liberty & justice for all
To break down this dividing wall
To remove homophobia from the law
I want to know what itʼs like...
To have a feeling that isn't sad.
To have something that I've never had.
To have a child call me dad.

I want to know what it's like...
To not feel like Iʼm a freak
To not feel like I am weak
To not be silenced when I speak
I want to know what it's like...
To live beyond a closet door.
To see my father once more.
To show him I'm not who I was before.

I want to know what itʼs like...
To donate the blood from my vein
But because Iʼm gay I must refrain.
Why does my sexuality pertain?!
I want to know what itʼs like...
To not BE expelled from school
To not be made to look like a fool.
How is homosexuality breaking a rule?!

I want to know what it's like...
To undo what's been done to me.
To give sight to those who cannot see.
That I am no lesser of a human being.
I want to know what itʼs like...
To not be considered a disease.
To not have a majority I have to please.
To freely express my individuality.

I want to know what itʼs like...
To live in a land truly of the free.
Not a land that excludes me.
This is not how itʼs supposed to be!
I want to know what itʼs like...
To not be the target of bigotry
To not have you question my sanity
To not succumb to your superiority!

I want to know what it's like...
To overcome all of my fears.
To uncry these countless tears.
That have been shed over the years.
I want to know what it's like...
To learn about gay leaders of the past.
In my high school history class.
Can somebody please tell me what is so wrong with that?!

I want to know what it's like...
To have pride.
To not have to hide.
To not have to lie my whole life.
To not have my sexuality be denied.
I want to know what it's like...
To not have to feel this hurt inside.
To not think these thoughts in my mind.
To not contemplate suicide.

I want to know what it's like...
To have this pain in me subside.
To heal this wound that bleeds inside.
To get back the tears that I've cried.
To take back the years that Iʼve tried.
To bring back the life that has died.
To unite this world's divide.
To make change with stride.
To not stand below, but beside.

I want to know what it's like...
To have this choice you say is mine.
To have science & religion intertwine.
To have love be redefined.
I want to know what it's like...
To have a government that won't instate
Unfair laws that provoke hate
For fear society will disintegrate

I want to know what itʼs like....
To live in a world without hate.
A world that does not discriminate.
A world in which I can feel safe.
Whether I am gay bi or straight.
This is the world we must create!!!
These are the decisions we must make.
These are the actions we must take.
The time is now we cannot, we must not, we will not wait.

I want to know what itʼs like...
To have equal opportunity.
To know the feeling of full equality.
To be one collective humanity.

I want to know what it's like...
To be treated equally by my peers.
To stand alongside every queer...
On the edge of a new frontier.

A frontier that no one will dictate.
A frontier where there will be no debate.
A frontier in which everyone can relate.
A frontier made up of love and not hate.

I want to know what it's like...
To open your eyes so you can see.
The way this world is supposed to be.
We arenʼt so different, you & me.

p.s. this somehow reminds me a project that I'd carried out with my friend's in college, namely LGBT's rights.

Moving On

Finally my trial that lasted two weeks has ended today! I'm glad I do not have to struggle to wake up early in the morning just to hardcore study! I'm loving it though I know when the papers are given back, I'll be doomed.

So, I was studying Biology yesterday. I couldn't concentrate so I started to think about all the lecturers that I've met. Then I simply made a conclusion. Do you agree that almost all Physics lecturers are boring, Biology lecturers are ridiculous and fierce and Chemistry lecturers are always nice and friendly? At least all that I've met are more or less like this. I wish they could just make the syllabus more lively and enjoyable! Then my thoughts shifted to why I hadn't studies hard for all my exams! I realised something again. I've been studying AS Level for one and half year already. Anythings would make me BORED if I've to study the same thing over and over again! My interest in studies has totally gone! I do not like to study for the sake of exam. Well that is what I am doing right now! That's why I almost abandoned my AS book and moved on to A2 books! Luckily I didn't, or else I do not know what I would've written in my papers. So I've make a simple decision. I must work really hard during A2. I'm going to find back the heart that craves for knowledge and textbook! :D

I was teaching a two-hour dance class today. I almost died from being too exhausted. But what could be happier to see all enthusiastic dancers trying their hardest to learn and improve :) Introduced Vogue to them. Hope they liked it, and will continue to learn. People who dance Vogue internationally are really too little! I hope by doing this, I can spread the knowledge I have for Vogue to everyone who is interested! Am glad to see lots of guys trying out Girlstyle and Vogue too! I am seeking my successors haha! :P

Sometimes I just have to force myself to move on despite the reluctance is really strong. When I see you've changed so much, I know I will not be able to recognise the old version of you that I love really much when you come back. I've no idea if I should be happy for you, or sorrow for myself. Seeing how great you're doing, how happy you're, how much you enjoyed your freedom etc, I'm really happy. I'm confused myself if my tears are tears of joy, or the opposite. Glad to know you're doing good though, at least I do not have to worry a thing. I miss you, a lot. Yet I know I know those promises that we had made to each other didn't mean anything anymore. I knew it you will never remember em' even when you were making em'.

I can't wait for my Easter break! 2 weeks of freedom! Please, make time runs faster. I used to beg so that the time will be stopped or slowed down. Now I just hope everything ends earlier. Rushing through these meaningless days will be good. Until the day I see you.

Did I say I have a super cute admirer? :p

xoxo,
Ming.